learning about how I think

I’m in the middle of a large creative project. With a clear deadline. And lots of pieces that–at this point–I need to figure out.

As the project moves along,  I will get other people involved. I will get help. I will make it more fully be about us. But at this point, it is me.

I have a list of people that I owe emails that I’m not getting to. And the longer the time goes, the more frustrated those people are likely feeling. And the more frustrated I’m feeling about not answering.

In trying to understand the problem this morning, I realized that when I am doing this kind of project, all the parts of my brain that are about intentional creative problem-solving and implementing are going toward the project. As a result, any other conversations that require me to be creative and thoughtful and committed suffer.

A post? No commitment so it’s easy. A schedule question? Commitment so it’s hard. A project in the future? No commitment so it’s easy. Lunch choice today? A commitment so it’s hard. An excuse? Easy. An explanation? Hard because it involves writing a story.

In the past, I would look at this as failure. “Why can’t I do everything.” Today, it’s opportunity. “How can I take this understanding of what is making thinking so challenging and refine what I’m doing, how I’m interacting?”

Not a big post, I know. But a big deal to me. So I thought I’d share it. And then go back to creating and committing.


The project? We decided to give the people who show up at our church services on Easter Sunday a DVD about us. 5 video shorts that say “here’s what happens the rest of the week, the rest of the year.” It will be great for guests, but it will also be great for regulars who don’t see all the pieces.

Running 900 copies will be easy. Right now, I’m shooting. That’s the challenge.

By the way, if you’d like a copy when we’re done, let me know.


3 responses to “learning about how I think

  1. Well first, thanks for making time to send a few texts today. Second, you have my address. Please send a copy to Maine when you’re done.

  2. Guilt is probably one of the biggest factors in my personal un-productivity. Guilt leads to guilt and my guilt about being behind leads to more distractions and more guilty unproductivity.

    Oh.. And I would love a copy.

  3. Put me down for a copy. Or if you wanna save the postage & put it on Vimeo, send me that link.

    Thanks & may God give you strength and clarity as you move forward.