looking back – following God: a small step

(This post was first published on May 31, 2007)

small steps.
one at a time.
not looking at potential outcomes.
not looking at potential catastrophes.
not looking at water under our feet.
not even trying to see the next step.

small breaths.
one at a time.

five hundred twenty-five thousand, six hundred minutes seems like an immense number. But that year can only be lived one minute at a time. And each one is an act of faith. and each one is an act of love. and each one is an investment.

And we want formulas. And we want answers. And we want the right questions. And we want to know that it is worth it and that it matters and that it, well, that it is what to do.

And we never ever get to know the next step or the next breath or the next thought until it happens.

And when Job wanted answers and suffered without cursing God and was going through pain, God never ever ever told him why. All God said was, “were you here when I made all this?”

A singularly dissatisfying answer in the abstract, but I’m pretty sure that when Job was hearing God actually asking him the question, he didn’t argue too much.

But we don’t often get to actually hear God. saying. our. name.

Or do we?

Not if we are expecting it to come with answers. other than…

small steps.
one at a time.
not looking at potential outcomes.
not looking at potential catastrophes.
not looking at what the step after this one might mean.

just small steps.
one at a time.

————-

“Looking Back” is an opportunity to republish posts which have mattered to me. They may matter to you, too.

Comments are closed.